I know you will be angry with me
But I don't have another choice.
I thought they would listen to me
But I didn't have the voice.
I had listened to every word they said.
I expected they would listen to me here.
I walked on the road bowing my head down and
Never spoke to anyone because of their fear.
I had never known the fact that
Love is not in anyone's control.
While I had denied my feelings on your face;
My tears had spoken the words of my soul.
Life had become so beautiful
I saw the love in your eyes;
You held my hands and promised
'I'm yours forever', it felt so nice.
I never thought they would oppose
And lock me inside my house!
For choosing something on my own;
Even if it is as important as my spouse.
I thought they would agree
As we belong to the same caste.
But they said the choice wasn't mine!
That conversation was the last.
It is not that I did not fight for you -
I have even threaten to kill myself!
But mom claimed giving birth to me is a debt,
I have to live my life their way even if I lose my self.
I thought my parents wanted to see me happy
But they love the society more
The society which knows only to find mistakes
Of the people who go against their rule.
I never guessed I was doing them a favor
By living my life their way
One important decision I took on my own
Cost me all the happiness within a day.
'I will never love anyone else'
Was the only promise I gave you
And I am keeping the promise
Even if I would never meet you.
My future is not in my hands;
I will be married soon for sure.
The day they will get me married;
My soul will be alive no more.
I have sacrificed my love for them
Now there is no love in me for anyone
Please move on in life and be happy
Forget me and marry someone.
I am not worthy enough to ask you
Not to be angry with me
I have always loved only you
Your memories will be always there with me.
You have promised that you live for me
Please remember your word
I am no better than dead now
By ending your life, for me, don't make it worse.
I will feel a little alive
If you are happy in your life
Please do me that one favor and make it easy
To pay back my parents their debt - My Life!